Tasting Shoe Leather

I have a problem.   I have a tendency to talk faster than I can think.   This gets me in trouble.  Not all the time, but some of the time.  I get started, think I’m being funny, or think that everyone realizes I’m just kidding and being sarcastic.  Every once in a while, something I say really gets to someone.  Usually not in a way that I meant, but that’s irrelevant, isn’t it?

I take full responsibility for all the stupid things that come out of my mouth that aren’t nearly as funny as I think they’re going to be.  I just wish I could learn.   

Because I really don’t want to hurt people’s feelings, and I don’t want them to be mad at me.  

Also, I honestly am almost never trying to make some sort of subtle point.  I feel like people think I’m trying to say something more than what I am.   I’m very much a speak my mind type of person, so I don’t really allude to things.   I’m not trying to imply a damn thing.   That’s why it’s so frustrating when I realize that someone has heard something in what I said because I’m a pretty straight forward kind of person.   But I’m not trying to make any sort of excuses.   I’ve been insensitive, and I own that.

So, I guess I just need to learn to slow down a little bit.   In every possible situation, I need to learn to think about how what I’m saying is going to sound to someone else.  Anyone else, really.   

If you think this is about you, then I probably said something really thoughtless to you at some point.  It wouldn’t surprise me, because I really am beginning to think that I’m a total moron.   At any rate, I apologize.  I am very truly deeply sorry.   

So here’s to learning to think before I speak.   And knowing when to keep my mouth shut.   

And to no more sucking on my feet.

Just sayin’.