The Upside

Not being able to fall asleep until after three in the morning sucks. However, it does provide me the opportunity to read more blogs and news stories, as well as post some myself.

Last night, I found this article on New York times about a bunch of older women who were having a knit in against the war.   I think it was linked from Feministe.   Anyway, the wisdom of elders is undeniable when you read things like this quote from 93 year old grandmother Marie Runyon: “Give Iraq our Constitution, we’re not using it!”

Not Sleeping Again

I’m having trouble sleeping again.   I’ve been exhausted for weeks, and tomorrow I’m supposed to be up early for a breakfast meeting/event.  It’s an unending cycle.  But when I turn out the lights, and turn off the computer or TV, and it’s just me, I get pretty lonely.

I get what I call the random lonely girl thoughts:

I really am all on my own.

What if I snap being by myself so much, and I lock the door and never leave my apartment again.

What if I fall and break a hip in the shower.

If I die, how long will it take someone to find my body.

What if I’m all alone forever.

So, I was sitting on my window sill, having a little cry, and I heard some noises and voices out in front of my apartment.  I peeked out between the blinds, and saw a guy leaning into the window of a car in front of my apartment.

New lonely girl thought –

What if a drug dealer shoots me through my front window for spying on him.

Now I’ll never get to sleep.