Quote for Today

I don’t know that I necessarily want to get into doing a QOTD type thing, but here’s a quote I found, and it’s lovely for today.

 

For now she need not think about anybody.  She could be herself, by herself.  And that was what now she often felt the need of—to think; well, not even to think.  To be silent; to be alone.  All the being and the doing, expansive, glittering, vocal, evaporated; and one shrunk with the sense of solemnity, to being oneself, a wedge-shaped core of darkness, something invisible to others.  Although she continued to knit, and sat upright, it was thus that she felt herself; and this self having shed its attachments was free for the strangest adventures.  When life sank down for a moment, the range of experience seemed limitless….Beneath it is all dark, it is all spreading, it is unfathomably deep; but now and again we rise to the surface and that is what you see us by.  Her horizon seemed to her limitless.

– Virginia Woolf, To the Lighthouse

 

I hope you enjoyed that.  I found it to be a wonderful description of what’s possible by letting go and being present.  Living in this precise moment is more expansive than one might realize, if you can manage it.

Eleanor Roosevelt Once Said ….

It’s not her birthday, or anything, but I was thinking about Mrs. Roosevelt today.  I have a refrigerator magnet that shows a picture of Eleanor Roosevelt, and a quote from her:  “Do something every day that scares you.”

That’s not such a hard philosophy for me to follow.  I’m usually pretty scared of everything.    I’m scared of everything staying the same, and I’m scared of things changing.    I’m scared of my past, and I’m scared of my future.   Hell, I’m scared of sock monkeys.   I just need to remember that if some decision I face or some circumstance frightens the daylight out of me, well then I’m probably doing something right.    Life shouldn’t be too easy.

Momser read me this quote once, where she said: “Remember always that you not only have the right to be an individual, you have an obligation to be one.”

I can only be myself.    I cannot be what people need me or want me to be, unless what they want and need me to be is just myself.   I struggle with being myself.    But I know that I, myself, sometimes have to do things that other people don’t understand or wouldn’t do.   And if there’s something in the way of me being as me as I can be, well I guess it’s my duty to break it down.

That all got me to thinking quite a bit more about Mrs. Roosevelt, and so I started going through collections of her quotes, and here are a few more that have some meaning to me.

She said: “A little simplification would be the first step toward rational living, I think.”

I need to take a step back, and look around.   Nothing needs to be this complicated.  It is.  I am.

She said: “Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you’ll be criticized anyway. You’ll be damned if you do, and damned if you don’t.”

I need to stop worrying so much about what others think of my actions.  I have to do what I have to do.   There will always be someone who disagrees or who would do it differently.     They’re not looking my reality in the face.

She said: “I have spent many years of my life in opposition, and I rather like the role.”

I should try to find some more pleasure in being different.   I can’t always agree, and I don’t want to.   It wouldn’t be much fun.  Life wouldn’t be as much fun if we all agreed about anything.   From the big things to the little things, I need to find a way to say, “I don’t agree with you.”

She said: “Life must be lived and curiosity kept alive. One must never, for whatever reason, turn his back on life.”

And finally she also said: “Happiness is not a goal; it is a by-product.”

So I’m going to live my life, be myself, cut the fat, voice my unpopular opinions, scare the crap right out of myself.   And if I do this, if I follow the advice of Eleanor Roosevelt, well, I think I might not be too bad off.    And I think if Eleanor were here, she’d give me an encouraging smile and tell me to get to it.    Because …”It takes as much energy to wish as it does to plan.”

And as always, I’m just sayin’.

Quote of the Day (Actually Quote of Yesterday)

One of the cast members in Cinderella said,

Wow!  You actually look like a girl!

Gee, thanks.   I was headed to a barbecue after the matinee.  I’d changed into something a little more flowery and flow-y than the standard black on black that we wear backstage to keep from being seen.  Gotta love it.

Quote of the Day

This one is from the best writer in America today. Me.

Who needs straight men when gay guys think you’re fabulous just the way you are, and don’t want to take advantage of you?

Of course, I’m a little biased at the moment. I just met the most intriguing gay man in the Castro. He gave me his number. I gave him my number. Maybe it’ll never turn into anything, but I’m hoping we can hang out, and have fun. I think that’s what I need now, more than anything – someone who loves me for the fucked up mess that I am, and doesn’t want me to be anything more or less than that. It’s the perfect symbiotic relationship: gay man/straight woman. I don’t know why it works so well, but it just does.

I’m looking for blind admiration and fruitless flirting here, folks.

Just sayin’.