I’m having trouble sleeping again. I’ve been exhausted for weeks, and tomorrow I’m supposed to be up early for a breakfast meeting/event. It’s an unending cycle. But when I turn out the lights, and turn off the computer or TV, and it’s just me, I get pretty lonely.
I get what I call the random lonely girl thoughts:
I really am all on my own.
What if I snap being by myself so much, and I lock the door and never leave my apartment again.
What if I fall and break a hip in the shower.
If I die, how long will it take someone to find my body.
What if I’m all alone forever.
So, I was sitting on my window sill, having a little cry, and I heard some noises and voices out in front of my apartment. I peeked out between the blinds, and saw a guy leaning into the window of a car in front of my apartment.
New lonely girl thought –
What if a drug dealer shoots me through my front window for spying on him.
Now I’ll never get to sleep.
Peggy Lu Who's Just Sayin' 