It’s part of the process, really. I opened myself to a lot of new experiences in the last year, and I call it my Crazy Single Girl Life. It’s what you have to do, right? You have to invite the good in. Unfortunately, with the good, sometimes a bit of unpleasant dust blows in with it.
Part of the growing I need to do is to learn to better trust my instincts. For the last few months, my gut has been telling me that something was wrong. I tried to change some of my behavior, and distance myself in certain situations, to shield myself from some behavior that was making me uncomfortable. I tried to remain optimistic, and tell myself that these were things that would just blow over with patience. However, there comes a point where you realize that the best answer is just to stop and say, “NO. No more. I’m done.”
I have quit the band and the soccer team.
It wasn’t all bad, and I have made some wonderful friends. I know that we will see each other, and continue to be a part of each others lives.
But not everyone I meet is deserving of my friendship or my respect.
And at the same time, just because you shouldn’t be friends with someone, that doesn’t mean that you have to be enemies. It just means that you move on.