It’s been years, really, since I did anything with this blog. There’s a couple of reasons why I stepped away. First and foremost, I have been working through a lot of personal shit. I may go into this later. For now I’ll say that I’ve remade a lot of my life, I’ve been working hard professionally, and I have been taking classes. All of that left little to no time and even less emotional energy for this blog that I started mostly for laughs and to amuse my friends, but at some times turned into just the only place where I could express some of my opinions about my life, my surroundings, and the world I live in.
And then someone left a comment on here, a mean spirited personal attack. But I can take that. I usually laugh those off, in fact. The difference with this one was that they included certain details that I have never, nor will ever disclose here on this blog. I try to be open and honest here about the things that I want to be open and honest about, but I value my privacy. This person went out of their way to make sure I knew that they were someone who knew me personally, and that they had really big problem with me. Although, they did it anonymously, so I will never knew who they were/are, or why they did it.
It spooked me. And it made me think twice about what I wanted to put out on the internet about myself, even if I was doing so under a pen name.
So for a long time, there was nothing that I wanted to write about that much, because I always thought, ‘am I opening myself up to that kind of attention again?’ The answer is, I don’t think I care so much anymore. There are silly things that pop into my head, and dumb shit that happens to me that I want to subject the internet to, and if someone doesn’t like it or doesn’t like me, well then why are their dumb asses coming to my damn website in the first place, huh?
Seriously, though, there is a friend of mine who recently started a blog, and I feel inspired to start over. Not really start over, because obviously there are hundreds of posts in my archives, and I’m not going to wipe all that out. That would be stupid. But there are a lot of things I’ve been thinking about that I want to write. He really wants more people to view his blog, I think, and he definitely wants people to interact with it. (I might post a link to his blog in the sidebar, but I’ll probably ask him first.) I’ll probably send him a link to this, just so he knows that reading what he’s written in the last few days or weeks has helped me have more confidence about trying this again. I doubt he’s ever seen this blog. Most of my friends that I’ve made in the last four years have no idea that it exists.
And I’ll wrap this up with a music video I like. Because I still love music, and having a soundtrack is important. Just sayin’.
Peggy Lu Who's Just Sayin' 